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     Lauren has pitch black dyed hair, although her natural hair has a beautiful dark brown color. She doesn’t curl her hair, she either irons it so it is completely and flawlessly straight, or she wears it with natural waves, not curly, just with waves. That is when she doesn’t tie it back, if she does she usually wears an adorable messy bun or a mesmerizing long pony tail. Either way, it always looks pretty soft. Her skin is very pale, but not in the unhealthy way, her eyebrows are really expressive and they seem normal, not too thin or too thick. Her eyes are hypnotizing, they change color depending on her moods and on the light, but my favorite color is green. That is when they remind me of mine, however, hers are out of this world. They are sparkling when she is excited or happy and I remember thinking that her piercing eyes caught everyone’s attention due to the mascara around them in her eyelashes, but I have seen her eyes without any make-up and they were still completely gorgeous. When I look her in the eyes is like I am looking into her naked soul, they tell a thousand different stories. Lauren’s lips are naturally light pink and a bit dry, nevertheless, in the moment she wears red lipstick, it’s impossible to look anywhere that is not her lips. Her smile is contagious, when she truly smiles the whole world reciprocates that smile, because it is the cutest thing that I have ever seen. And her voice, God her voice, it is husky and deep and when she sings I forget where I am, who I am or that my mother tongue is Spanish, I just get lost in her raspy voice. She is as tall as I am, she is not skinny, but she keeps fit. She usually wears a pair of ripped up jeans or some denim shorts and a band t-shirt, a sweater that looks a little big on her or a comfy hoodie. Normally, she wears flat shoes, although I think I have never seen her with sneakers, however, she uses high heels when she is in a show, at some awards or an interview. She is portrayed to be the badass of the group, only the fans know she is just some lovely dork who is still growing up, like every teenager in the US. Lauren is always looking out for her friends and beloved ones, she would defend them even if it meant looking cold, fierce or rude. She cares about her fans like anyone that I have ever known and she makes everyone’s day when she speaks her mind, because she sees the world in such a singular and deep way that she leaves us utterly awestruck.   

Worth It

     So Fifth Harmony has released a new song while I was sleeping, but I suppose that I wouldn’t have slept at all if I had known, so it’s a good thing that I was surprised. I’ve had it in repeat since I heard it for the first time and I still can’t believe that they are singing that, and believe me, I’m not the only one: the fandom is freaking out. I’m dying to listen to the rest of the album in two weeks and to see them perform it in The Reflection Tour. A rapper is featured in this song and, although when I found out about it I was a bit skeptical, I have to say that he fits really well. The funny thing is that this song is not any of the girls’ favourite, so I’m looking forward to hearing their favourites. I’m sure the wait will be totally worth it ;)

Riptide

     I’ve fallen in love with this video. Not only because Taylor’s version of the song is outstanding, but because of her expressions. I’ve spent two years of my life watching awestruck how she sang All Too Well without her voice breaking. I looked at her face and saw pure sadness and pain. However, when I watch this video and other recent ones, the thing only I see is her smile. She’s now smiling all the time, she enjoys every single minute of her life and it’s the best thing to see. She has grown up so much during the past year and watching her find happiness in the most simple things has made all her fans extraordinarily euphoric.

Reflection Tour

     Fifth Harmony released this cover to announce their oncoming headlining tour, with these other singers as opening acts.  The tour is only around the U.S. and it will only last a month but it is still a huge step for them, since this is their first headlining tour. The cover is amazing and they really show their vocals. It’s pretty depressing not being able to see them in concert yet, however, I’m so proud of them and so happy for them that my feelings are a bit conflicted. Anyhow, I can’t wait until the day that I get to meet them.

What to do?

     I was going through some pieces of writing that I had in my laptop and I ended up reading something that I wrote 4 years ago. I usually feel like I’ve matured when I read something old because now I don’t see things in the same way or because my life has changed. Nevertheless, I can always relate to at least part of this piece of writing that my 14 years old self wrote to liberate herself. I loved it back then and I still love it now, so I’ll do my best to translate it:

     What to do when you don’t know how to explain what’s happening to you? What to do when you don’t know whom to trust? What to do when you don’t know if you’re doing the right thing, or if what’s right for some people ends up being the wrong thing? What to do if you’re seeing your world falling apart and you can’t do anything to avoid it? What to do if what’s the salvation for some turns out to be your ruin? What to do if your main reason for not believing in a God is that you don’t want to add anyone more to the list of things you despise? What to do if you don’t know how to go on, if you don’t know what step to take next, if you don’t know what to name what you’re living, what’s happening to you? What to do if you only can think about one thing, in spite of knowing it’s not possible for it to happen? What to do if you only like two or three sides of your future, you loathe five or six and you’re afraid of ten? What to do if just by thinking of your next five years, fear overcomes you and it’s impossible for you to make it retreat? What to do when everything seems lost and you don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel? What to do when everyone puts you aside, when no one pays attention to you, when as much as you try, you don’t get to be happy and if you are at some point, something happens that keeps you from thinking happily? What to do if looking to the future is scary, looking to the past hurts and being in the present is impossible? What to do if getting up every day is so hard? What to do if you can’t pretend anymore, if you need to show who you are but you’re not given the chance, or they scare the life out of you making you believe that all of them are truly happy while you are just pretending? What to do if you need to tell somebody, but you don’t know what you need to tell, only that you have to tell it? What to do if as much as you hide, they find you and as much as you try to claim that the person they’ve found is not you, they don’t listen, they become deaf suddenly? 

If I Stay

     I saw last week If I Stay, I had read the book but I hadn’t found time to watch the movie. I believe it’s pretty good for a romantic / teen movie, however, it doesn’t have anything to do with the book.

     I found the book heartbreaking and overwhelming, I cried every few pages and I wanted to know if she decided to die or to stay. The book was, at least for me, a reflection about life and how we grief death. The writer made you feel as if Mia (the main character) was alone without her parents and brother, as if she had lost it all. Reading the book I could understand why maybe she could decide to go and reunite with her dead family. I was heartbroken when her granddad talks to her while she’s on a coma and I understood her love for the cello and music.

     However, the movie was completely different. I felt as if she had still a lot of people in her life in spite of her parents and brother dying and although I cried with her granddad monologue, it wasn’t the same. The movie is about love, is about how Adam made her happy and how, supposedly, he made her decide to stay. But it’s not like that, because in the sequel you learn that they actually break up after she wakes up, so she didn’t really decide to stay for him, she decided to stay because of the music and to get to live her life, even if she knew that it was going to be really difficult.

Glee 6x03

      I watched the new episode of Glee today, the new season started last week and fortunately it’s the last season. I want it to end so badly, because lately it’s been so boring, but of course, I want to know how the scriptwriters end it. The plot is non-existent right now and the songs aren’t very known, at least by me; however, sometimes there’s a good joke or an interesting moment.

      Glee is known for approaching social problems and issues, especially among teenagers. Bullying for example, homophobia, relationships, self-confidence, Down syndrome, etc. But I was surprised with one topic shown today, I’m not sure if they talked about it before. I have to find out if they recorded the episode after the news or it’s just pure coincidence, but a case of gender dysphoria is showed. That means that someone is not comfortable in their own skin and they want to belong to the opposite sex, this is commonly known as a transgender. The scene reminded me instantly of Leelah Alcorn’s death a few weeks ago, she was a boy who wanted to be a girl but couldn’t because her parents treated her like crap, punished her and made her go to some kind of religious therapy. It was a pretty important topic in social network like Tumblr due to the fact that her mother refused to acknowledge that her daughter, who she still called son, had committed suicide because of her and her husband, despite the huge suicidal letter that she posted in her Tumblr.

      Bearing in mind Glee’s history, I do think they recorded the episode after Leelah’s death. Anyhow, whatever reason they had to record that scene, I’m glad they did, because we should never forget that topic and seeing the antagonist of the TV show understanding it and helping this person is really endearing.